A new blog
Since everyone is using blog spot so i got one for myself too. Bye bye scorpio. new blog at http://chuihan-myeverylittlething.blogspot.com/
Since everyone is using blog spot so i got one for myself too. Bye bye scorpio. new blog at http://chuihan-myeverylittlething.blogspot.com/
What de hell am i doing in the evening of 1st day of CNY?? well,since i had nothing better to do n no kaki to play cho dai di with so i guess the next thing I wanna do is to write down my interesting life for de past 1 week...
This week had been a vy bz one for me. Started my preclinical preparation practical. Learnt lot of new skills during this week and of coz most of them are way too cool compare to wat we had in IMU:P
Monday: We had a lesson on aseptic, wound dressing, sc & im injection, and cannulation. Fun!!! Haha..1st time i did an injection all by my own from scratch. Tho is all on model but was still a vy new thing for me to get excited about. Cannulation was the best!! Skill alone is cool enough but the best part is here we got to practice on a model that have blood oozing out when we cannulate them..hoho..So we can actually know whether we did it correctly or not by looking at the flush back of 'blood'...
Tuesday, we had another interesting thing. Phlebotomy aka blood taking in simple word. Haha..This time no more on model.. we are practising it on real people ( on each other basically) . To be fair , each of us had 2 chances to poke others and of coz we will have our both hand poked by someone else..My 1st attempt was ok.went smoothly without any problem..damn pro right..hoho..but my 2nd attempt nearly killed daph!! Her vein is so deeply sitted and with my 'pro' skill I cant get any blood from her after i poked her..The phlebotomist asked me to adjust my needle a bit and cleverly i did wat she said..Can see daph face changes whenever i re-angle the needle..so sorry for her..haha..but at the end I still cant get a single drop from her.LOL. gonna practice more on this ..hmm..does this mean more victim to come??:P
Wednesday, had patient handling in the morning..Basically just a practical class on how to move patients around by using different technique to mimimised injury to urself and trauma to patients. Quite fun to practice those skill esp de evacution for bed ridden ptn..We actually tie them onto the bed n slide them down the stairs!!!
Wednesday afternoon is the most tiring of all..Had resuscitation class. Just as we enter the room we were told that we had to undergone an assessment on how well our resuscitaition. OMG.I did my CPR lesson like zillion years ago..Thank god the assessment is not a vy tough one..after that we had a 3 hrs course on basic resuscitation. Mainly on clinical setting..how to get help, get other ppl to involve in rescue, help in patient handling, ordering test for investigation and etc..Kind of forget all my pharmaco and patho d..After the course we were divided into 2 gps for another round of assessment..Each of us had a chance to be a team leader in the resuscitation team in which we will be assess on our skills, role allocation of team members and our management plan..Tired but the whole thing was fun ,like practising in the real life.
Thursday, rains for the 1st time since i came to Perth. In the cold weather we had our catheterization lesson. Each of us had a chance to perform male n female catheterization..of coz, on model!!haha. After the 3 hrs session we rushed to hospital for our nursing attachment. Spent about 5 hrs in the oncology ward following n observed the nurses. I did a gangrenous wound dressing there and some simple admission procedure.. But what made the whole thing interesting was the patients there. Most of them are old ppl who is having their chemotherapy..I had a patient who is always confused about date and time and he had been asking me to give him his medication b4 Ming Dynasty..it was my 1st time working with old ppl and although i can rarely understand wat they want but it was a worthwhile experience for me. Seeing the geriatric registrar working and communicate with the patient is really an eye opener for me..Thumb ups for them!! Salute the way they handle the patients' emotion and temper..Looking forward for tmr's attachment..
This weekend is going to be a busy one for me..Will pay a visit to my dad's friend on sat for CNY celebration. In the evening will have a reunion dinner with all the IMU seniors and some other asian students at chinatown..Looking forward for that since we had almost zero celebration for CNY. Sunday will go 'crabbing' haha..Will go Mandurah to catch crabs with seniors.Hope the weather will be bright and sunny..Yeah..love going out to the sea!!
Going to move out of the hostel soon tho i got an offer from the hostel..After lots of dilemma finally I had make up my mind to move out..Gonna start my new life in a new environment where I got to take care of my basic needs myself..A little bit scare but since i had made my choice i will make the best out of it..Oh ya..will start my general medicine rotation next week..Luckily i am posted to a hospital which is just behind my new house..thank god..Will have my full rotation in respiratory unit..Hmm..After letting my respi notes RIP for so long i think now is the time for me to prepare myself d..Don wana die too pathetically in front of my consultant..:P
K la..I think thats all of my update..Happy CNY to all ..happy melbourning and bon voyage to Huan!! All the best gal!! +oil !!!
独自一个人在陌生的城市待了两个星期，一切还是陌生，还是新鲜的，虽然偶尔会有些空虚，有些思乡， 但庆幸的是更多的时候感受的是温暖，惊喜。现在的我还是处在调试阶段，还是对周遭的一切感到新鲜，好奇，也去因为如此让我暂时忘却了想家的心情。原以为我已摆脱了乡愁，但是每逢佳节必思亲，尤其是在这样的日子，真的好想在家。
想念家里的热闹，想念妈妈的唠叨,想念她催促我们打扫房间; 想念老爸的手艺，想念那传统的客家菜；想念和弟弟吵吵闹闹抢食物的情景；想念和朋友到处拜年，四处走走，想念过年的种种，想念肉干，想念的蛋卷，想念布置得红彤彤的大街小巷，想念到处都洋溢着新春气息的家乡小镇。原来在平常不过的事情现在却成为了我怀念的一切。
好想好想回家过年。好想家。。。。。。
Wow..so fast it had been 5 days since i arrived at this peaceful and beautiful place.. Perth city...A place where I will take in as home for the coming 3 years..
As I was saying earlier god sent me here for some reason and I am glad that Im here now. Althought I almost gotten kick to Aberdeen for some reason but I was glad that at the very last minute that I got my visa and was able to fly on time. The only pity is that I wasted my 1 week time that should be spent nicely with friends and family by doing stupid stuffs regarding my visa...
And now, Im here d and I hope that all the bad things had gone. Now just starting my new life here.. Perth is a nice place to stay I would say. And surprisingly me this cry baby doesn't cry like the time that I went IMU. I think not because I had matured but is because that I can now use webcam to chat with my family and CK whenever I want. Just like seeing them everyday.Really feel much better that I know everytime I miss them I can see them and talk to them..Haha.now every night I will have a mini conference with mummy and CK till late night...
Another thing is i got a wonderful & mighty daddy who accompanied me here and stayed with me to help me settled down and get familiarised with this new environment. Thanks lot to him I am now familiar with my place and was able to take public transport to whichever place I want. We had a great fun sight seeing in Perth city as well these few days...wonderful moment..Really blessed to have him by my side and I know he will be always there when I need him.
School starts tomorrow..Looking forward to go to the new faculty and the new teaching hospital.Im settling fine here and now the only thing that I need is to get a new room since I had only given a temporary stay in hostel due to the overflow application. Well, Dad say take this as a challenge and I shall be able to overcome it since im his strong n tough gal..wahaha.. and I shall be.. Im a big gal now..Cannot made those who care bout me worry..
Learning lots of skill these days, all the survival skill that can never learnt from books. Learnt how to manage my money, how to put money from this account to that account and how to gain higher interest..haha..I never did these when I was in Malaysia... This weekend going to market and get all the fresh and good bargain vege and fruits in the market..Another skill to be learnt..Well, staying oversea alone indeed got a lot of stuffs to learn so no matter how oso I got to be patient and acquire those skills in order to live the fullest...
Everything is fine here and everything will be fine in the future I believe..As daddy said: "Just remember the aim u r here and overcome all the things that stops u as a challenge that will made u grown up and u shall be fine". Gonna take this as my motivation and the motto for my life...Tomorrow will be better... haha!!!
Beginning of 2008....say bye bye to 2007, to IMU BJ, to b2-10-3, to.....lots of the thing im gonna miss...
Time flies, cant believe that i had finished my phase 1 in IMU bukit jalil. It was just like yesterday that we step into IMU and now 2 and a half yr had passed.And I'm leaving to Australia in less than 2 weeks time...
Finished the dreadful EOS few days back. Cant really describe the feeling when I finished the last question of my OSPE and waited for the buzzer. Following the buzzer, everything had come to an end.I thought I would be vy happy the exam had ended but i didnt. What accompany me more was the feeling of a lost. A little bit of emptiness. Thinking that I 'll be leaving a place that I had spent 2 1/2 years and going to a totally new place for my new life made me insecure. Hard to leave al my friends here, my housemate, ck, and my family....
Had a meaningful class dinner at atrium after the exam. A special event for all of us. Had lots of fun with the lecturers and friends. Everyone was busy signing autograph and taking photos whole the lecturers were busy singing and performing for us. A wonderful night i would say but this had made me even more hard to leave this place..I guess this is wat growing up is all about. Leaving the place where we belongs to a better future..I believe no matter how far I go my heart will still be bonded tightly to evey little thing here...
To all the M205's , really miss the days we had together. Wish u all the very best..To those who is going overseas, bon voyage and good luck. To those who is staying seremban, all the best in clinical sch...Proud to be a M205s...Live up the spirit of the fighter and beat those who messed with us into Char Siew!!! Good luck guys..
EOS is so near at the corner..but im still as slack as b4 or maybe even more slack than b4 now...Sigh.. Though i haven been studying much these few weeks and i know i have tonnes of thing left pending still i went back JB my home sweet home for a short weekend break...:)
Came back home on friday night..Daddy went to fetch me at Larkin. So happy the moment i hopped on the dad's car...Haha..3 days super short honeymoon starts...Went for dinner with family at the restaurant which we used to go and have the yummy hakka dishes...After dinner went back and become couch potato with dad, mum and bro..Nice feeling..No need to think about EOS and other stuffs just enjoy my free and easy time the way i want!
Saturday woke up early in the morning, went shopping with mummy...Had been waiting for this day a long time...It seem ages since the last time i went shopping with mummy alone..Haha..Gals power..Poor daddy had to bear the consequences...Had lunch with mummy after shopped..Had a nice little chat with her..Updating her my life, listen to her problem and worries, listen to her grumbling, sharing gossips...Nice and enjoyable moment...Reached home around 5pm and start playing my newly bought webcam with my daddy...Had a mini conference with him using the skype and webcam tho we are just a distance from my living room to dining room :P....Maybe for the next 3 yrs this may be our major way of communicating with each other d...Hmm How nice if some1 could invent something which we can touch and feel the other person by using webcam right..den i wont be missing home so much when im out there alone in Australia >.<
Sunday morning wake up around 6.45...Accompanied mummy go pasar pagi...I think the last time i accompanied her to go pasar was about few years back,...Walking with her thro the street that i used to walk, listen to her talking to the staller and other aunties, watching her showing me the place where she got stuffs to feed us, to get things that we used but never think of where they come from...Quite interesting to see aunties bargaining at pasar..haha..A skill that one should learn for better survival :P Lunch had my favourite home cooked curry ..yum yum..Missed home cooked food a lot...We had a almost 2 hrs lunch coz we were all chit chatting in between and after the meal...
After that, thanks to my bro, me and my daddy tried to play PS2 haha...PS 2 game really is a hard substance that one should never try coz once u try it u are boud to get addicted !! 3 of us actually ended up fighting for our turn to play...Mummy was the only one spared from the withdrawal syndrome...haha...If not because mummy was yelling at us and force us to take shower we just wouln't have stop it!! Greatest fun comes in especially when my dad is having a headache to coordinate his movement by using those little tiny button on the controller :D
Dad made his speciality--herbal chicken for dinner..One of my favourite dish which dad will always made for me whenever i came home...As usual, we talked and talked until almost 9.30pm.. Sometime is kind of fun to listen to my dad and my mum telling stories about their childhood, their relationship with my grandparents and their siblings. Although this is not the 1st time i listened to those stories still everytime mum and dad will have a different way of telling which made them sound as interesting as b4... 3 days holiday had come to an end...
Going back KL tomorrow and got to start to buck up since i had been lag behind schedule for so long...So reluctant to leave home..So relax and enjoyable to stay at home..Taking a short break really helps me to recharge back my energy...Hopefully by tomorrow i will get back the momentum to study again :) really had a great time and wonderful weekend..Looking forward to another one ...:p
Raining....
Gloomy...Is it because of the rain?
Low energy level, low endorphin production, low adrenaline...
Suddenly feel everything was so grey...Y??
Is it a pre-CNS syndrome or is it a post-meeting-dad symptom??
Maybe i just too emotional..Maybe i shall not indulge myself in this kind of mood anymore...but how???
时间过的好快, 转眼间我在KL 的日子只剩两个月了.
仿佛昨天才刚到 IMU 报到,一转眼即将离开这里,飞向另一个国度,也飞向另一个未来. 从一个人只身到KL这个陌生的城市读书, 到今天拥有着对这个城市满满的回忆, 点点滴滴, 写着的岂只是我人生里重要的一页?
想着不久的明天,又要再次只身前往另一座城市,再次从零开始拼凑属于自己的未来, 彷徨,无助,害怕 交织着向往,兴奋与期待. 五味杂陈. 我想只有和我有同样经验的人明白其中的意思吧!
一直觉得自己是幸运的.无论到哪里身边总会有可以一起笑,一起哭,一起玩乐,一起努力,一起走过风风雨雨的朋友. 也许正因为如此,现在的我开始害怕自己是否有能力一个人生活,同样的也开始对周遭的人和事越来越不舍.好像每一次的活动,每一次的相聚都是最后一次.格外珍惜.
自认自己是个性格暴躁.常会为小事钻牛角尖,心情可以随时大起大落的人. 在自己的安全区里总有人包容体谅着自己的坏脾气.真的不敢想像当我离开自己熟悉的地方,在异乡的我会如何.
也许人在异乡,举目无亲,是让我成长的最好机会,逼我走出自己的安全区,到外面的世界体验一下生活了.虽然这是我唯一可以给自己的安慰,但说归说,心情依旧忐忑.
但愿一切都会很好,但愿梦能圆,心能满.
Matching result just out yesterday..A result that i had been waiting for and working as hard as possible for it...
Sometimes when u had done anything that u can, tried ur vy best out but still can't get the thing u want, then maybe is ur own fate and destiny..Luck is not always on our side...But we can still move on and look forward for watever that is meant for us.. Someone told me that god sent u to a place must have a reason.. Take it and u'll see a brand new life ahead u..Well said...
Matching result out. Didn't manage to get into my 1st and 2nd choice..Nothing to grumble, nothing to be blamed. I did everything i can before this and all i can say is luck is not on my side.. Disappointed and sad initially when i saw the result.. University of Western Australia... My 3rd choice...
But after a short while, after i had calmed myself down..I began to ask myself y i so sad? I sad is because i had expected something and this something doesn't happen. Disappointement..Y im always the one forgotten by the lady of luck?? But think back UWA is not a bad choice tho..Quite a good uni in terms of ranking..And most importantly it is at Australia...Not so far from home :P ( tho no matter how near oso i wont be back that frequent )
And now, Im all ready to go there.. Though life may not be easy at 1st but i believe i'll make it thro and will like my brand new life at Perth... Im ready for a brand new life :)
Im depressed now.. Because of my suddenly occurred cough and my back pain that arise because of my 'fantastic life during selective'.
Selective is our last period of Sem 4. After this 'supposed to be' honeymoon period we shall all get into Sem 5, our last semester in IMU BJ. Our batch's selective is a totally different selective that none of our seniors had undergone. For our seniors they got to choose to do the things they want but for us, we all got to do the same 'interesting' thing which is the history of medicine in conjuction with IMU's 15th anniversary..Great..History of medicine.Studying about how bugs n drugs were discovered, who and when some disease were identified..etc..
Since this selective is unlike the usual system course thus we are having a small test at the end of the day plus a poster presentation. Poster! OMG..When is the last time i got involved in doing a poster?? We are divided into group of 5 where each group have to produce a poster of 1m X 1m and prepare a presentation for 10 mins based on the topic given. Ok, since this thing carries 40% of our assessment so by all means we got to do it...Nothing to be complaint about.. But things got little messy when my group decided to finish the thing asap..Rushing for a project is definitely will drive my adrenaline high...
Another big project which most of my batchmates are involved in is the Malaysian Studies project. Although every1 from private Uni have to take malaysian studies exam, we, are so much special that we actually putting up a Cuti- cuti Malaysia Expo in our Uni's atrium as our assessment. This project is about promoting tourism in our country and every1 of us are required to do some presentation. We are supposed to be assess as a group but as usual doing a group work means that they will be uneven workload distribution. Though these things are so time consuming the time given are so short. Finally these things is coming to an end soon...
What made my life more interesting is that i took part in a cheerleading competition as i thought this is my last semester in IMU and i think this will be my one n only chance to be a cheerleader. So i happily took up the challenge despite the fact that i can neither dance nor do stunts. Learning every move from scrape is not an easy task for me but since i had decided to participate in this therefore there shouldn't be any complaint from me. As some of my friends said: who ask u to be so enthusiastic at the 1st place? But still, sometimes cheerleading really made my day especially when we can all do the stuffs that seem impossible to us at 1st..
But me, thinking that i may be too free during selective, I got involved in the IMU charity run thingy as well..Helping up with the sponsorship is a quite Ok task i would say. But things got a little bit nasty when all the stuffs come at 1 go..Every1 was telling me this :" come on people, all i need is ur these few days, i understand that u all are busy with ur own stuffs but all i asked from u is jus few days..." Well, if i got a little time left i will be happy to donate it to those who asked from me..But i got none! Everyone was asking my " these few days" at the same time, how am i supposed to give my "these few days" to everyone??? Grumbled aside..Job still need to be done since i already volunteer myself at the 1st place..
Ok, i admit that i asked for all these myself..Im always the kind of ppl who can't just stay quietly and study everyday..To me, as a medical student we still can enjoy as much Uni life as possible by getting involved in all kinds of activities..But recently i really feel lost..Lost the purpose of being here in IMU...Skipping lectures to do project, tonnes of lecture notes left untouched...Maybe i sound very kiasu but yes i did think of studying for EOS 5 during this selective and now im in the middle of selective yet nothing revised...
The cough that strike me suddenly made me realised that my body had start protesting..I got to slow down my busy life to give myself a time to rest..Nowadays i just feel that i seldom do things for my own...I got no more energy to show concern to the person around me..N true enough they had started to make noise as well..Really hope they can give me time to settle my stuffs and unwind myself...I need a break...
I know i shouldn't be complaining since everything oso i get involved willingly..No 1 forced me to do all that stuffs..But sometime i jus need some 1 who can listen to me, hear me grumbled and let my heart out instead of saying that " who ask u to be so busybody? Cant cope it then dont offer urself at the 1st place.." I just need some 1 to pampered me a bit when im tired..All i need is a little concern from some1 though i understand everybody is busy n wore out by their own stuffs..
I think im getting more n more depressed these days..n im blaming it all to my sickness...Hopefullly by the end of the days when i get better all these negative mood will be gone..Hopefullly i can find back the happy go lucky chuihan again asap...